The last grey shade, I hope.

Am I such a hypocrite?
Well I guess you could just say so.
You can tell that you're right from the very beginning.

But trust me you would shed tears if you knew about my past.
But you don't really have to know about any of it anyway.

"Anyone is afraid of something that they don't understand"

So I would give you some clues.
If that will be necessary.
You will keep reading this.

I really had the urge for everything.
Every single thing.
But I know it would be wrong.
So wrong you won't realize until you believe it's the truth but it will be too late for you to get out of it.
Then I'll be here earlier to save you from that suffering.
Even though that you suffered already.
I want to save you from the deepest regret that will fulfill one part of yours that wouldn't be safe later.
I know this is not the right way, but I also didn't want to disappoint you from the beginning.
I also wanted to give it a chance.
Then we did.

So now please take a comfort distance if you don't want to be hurt.

I also never ever want to hurt you, or anybody.

For you, yeah you.

Let's be better from now on.

At least we're gonna try.
Aren't we?